Scared

For some reason on Easter Sunday an overwhelming wave of fear washed over me. out of nowhere i said "16 days!!!"
my sister had no idea what i was talking about.
such a short period of time!!!!!!!
there is no reason for me to be scared!
except for being out of the country on my own with not enough money of course
but that's nothing to worry or be scared about so what am i worrying about? 

the main dilemma on my mind right now is getting this semester over! i am so tired of this semester!!!!! 
i am not the only one either!
apparently a lot of people have it! 
i am mentally, physically, and emotionally FRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!
extremely tired and i have SO much to do

Feelings..........

Man!!!!!! 
Italy!!!
WOW!!!!!
ok, so i looked up pictures of everywhere we are going to go in Italy and posted them to my facebook wall. after looking at the places i am going.....it's just......i am in awww right now!!!!
i canNOT believe that i am Actually going to see all of these places!!!
i am especially excited about going to Uffizi in Florence!!!
seeing the actual painting of Venus!!!!..........WOW!!!!!!!!! a painting i have always loved and admired for its beauty and mysticism, i am actually going to see IT!! not just a copy in a book.

Rome is going to be exciting!!! seeing the Capuchin crypts in PERSON.................there are no words!!!
I am excited about Casa Cares too!   when i was in Kenya the place we stayed at the longest was wonderful!!! i felt like i was home!!!! i was family there!!! Marich Pass was the most wonderful place in the whole world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   
i do not see how Casa Cares could be any better!!! 
i certainly hope that i can make friends with everyone there and that i feel welcome and at home..............but.................i left my heart in Kenya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is me at the Rift Valley overlook just outside of Nairobi, Kenya

Before Italy

Ok, Breathe!!!!!

Italy in roughly 28 days!!!!!!!

I am so extremely excited!!!! There is a certain amount of anxiety because I will basically be on my own for some if not all of this trip. I cannot wait to experience the air, the people, the land, the food, the culture....

Everyone keeps telling me that once you go to Italia that it WILL be your favorite country. I am sorry but Kenya will always be where my heart is! I always say I left my heart (or at least part of it) in Kenya. 

I know I will be able to get there and get back and that I will not go hungry while I am there but there is this anxiety about not having a lot of money while I am there. Souvenirs are awesome and I want to have more than simply pictures and my memories to keep my company. I hope that something amazing will happen and I will either find Awesome deals OR come upon a little money. (snicker) I better hope for finding amazing deals lol

first post of many about this amazing journey I am about to partake on!!!